smbdy please wake me up!!!

please smbdy tell me it's not true,
tell me it juz a scary dream,
i dunt want it to happen n i neva though this thing will happen too,God,
it's smthing that i couldn't believe
smthing out of my mind..

mummy,

y should him..npew dy??dy da uat yunk terbaik..n terbagus..bleww ac peluk aril n ckap 'Slamat tinggal,Aril'..i was like shocked..OMG!!Shit!shit!shit!kenapa dy??this thing shouldn't happen in af..dluw zizi,skunk aril plak..OMG!!rasanya dy better than persembahan bdk2 pompuan mlm tuww.tah npeww sume ney jadi..ta peww wokkk,i will always support u from the back,in front kiri,kanan,hek3..ngada2 plak eyh,hek3 ; ]...tpi klaw mengikut peww yunk kuwhh rasa mayb gakss sbb neyy kuwtt..

• wambut dy ta chomeyhh mlam tuw,hek3
• maybe because of marsha n pengundi gal rasa tergugat,hek3..but 4 sure not me,k
• undian disekat
• pengundi dy tgk bola mlm tuw smpai lupa undi dy,hek3

rasa2 jew..tapi ta pa rezeki dy kt luar sedang menunggu..aiyeman ayat skema lak,hek3..whateva is it awokkkkkkk!!i will keep support u!!

tired!tired!tired!

da lama ta update my blog,huhuw..
today free time..noe y??
today i'm not goin to school..i have to do this,it's damn tired lorh..
yesterday after school,rush to the class tmbhan,mens that i was at school from 7 a.m until 6p.m..
then rush to the tusyen,not tuisyen actually,i'm work there as clerk,7 lebey bwu pandang umah
i left my homework n laptop n sleepp until this morning,
my mom call me,
i'm say i'm tired,my mom sad just go today coz klas tmbahan science,
so,it's important,
i said i'm very tired,
at last my mom allowed,huhuww
thanxxx mom,i appreciated it,
u noe that i'm really tired,
smtmes feel like want to died already,
only myspace n blog can make me happy,hek3..
~i wish ada hari yunk bley aku rest n sleep dgn tenang~

what the HELL r she doing!!

I dunt noe whats wrong with her,
Huh!!actually i think that she hate me(huh!do i look care about that),
she's so annoying,damn it,i hate her,she olwez act like a child,
heloww to that gal(can't mention her name here),
u noe what everyone talking bout ur behaviour,
so behave urself,owkayh..
u think that u r so great u skip class,just sleep in the class a whole day without doing anything,
when the teacher asking about the homework,baru nk terhegeh-hegeh tiru buku kwn,
u think it's great??
for me it's damn suckkk!!lol!!shit!!
n just now she sit wit the guy at the back,
only her a gal,
then owkayh lar but suddenly,,

~flasback kt dlam klas tady~

chinese guy: Weh,tgk **** kt blakang(sorry again,can't mention her name here)he said loudly until the whole class can hear..

at that time sume pusing blakang..aku yunk dlm kebluran hairan..asal ney dorunk pandang blakang..aku pun kalih..u noe what she's doing..Oh man!!one boy sleep beside her n she like urut2 n pegang2 that guy..oh man!!everyne like shocked..can't she just think about what people said to her..after that,klas trus bising..then,one of my friend said'' omg what she's doing??''then sorunk lagi kata"weh!ta btol ka dy arini" n a lot of question n i'm just like usual blur,hak3..i dunt noe what to say..what the hell r she doing??i think she can think on her own what she have done..she have to remember she is a gal,she have to think about her pride too..she have to think what people might say to her..da lar tadi kt dalam klas the whole day dy sorunk gal dk dgn ramai2 guy kt blakang..dunt she think bout herself too,what the guy will do to her..Huh!!
think on ur own larr,u r big gal already..just that i wanna say,if she want people respect u,u have to respect urself first..

at last~

this is da moment that i have waited for a long time ago,hak3,
i'm so happy,
so damn happy,at last he's not there anymore,
kuar juga kamoo akhirnya,hak3,aku happy siot,akhirnya kuar jga sidi dri af,jaat kn aku,hak3,
seb bek wok aku ta kuar,hek3,
smalam mmg aril beh cgt,yuhuuu,he get a gud comment from pengkritik,
i'm happy for u aril,hek3(ceh,cm dy baca kn,hek3)
papeh pun impian aku da terlaksana,
sidi kuar,yahuuuuu,hek3

~if dew sapa2 ta puas ati or sokong aku juz leave a comment there,hek3..choww~

this feeling..

aku taw ta spatutnya bnda ney wujud,
aku taw ko mesti kata ku truk,
n aku taw walau kau cakap kau faham,bagi aku ta siapa faham pa yunk aku rasa skunk,
ta da sapa akan fahan this feeling until they being hurt too much..
keadaan memaksa aku pilih jalan ni,aku pk maybe dgn jalan ney aku bley epy,aku bley rasa bahagia yunk aku cari tapi aku clap..the happiness is still not there,i dunt noe why i've been judged until like this..jaat ka aku ney??sepanjang idupku aku slalu jaga n pk prasaan org len smpaikn aku sndiri ta jaga diri sndiri,tapi org tetap ta hargai pa yunk aku uat,aku mmg menci dy,dy n dy sbb tuw aku pilih si dya tp si dy pun tah..tapi aku rasa epy bila kau sanngup dgar ctew aku..aku taw ko mmg kwn yunk baik,adilla..aku taw ko pun salu rasa saket cm yunk aku rasa kn??i'm sick to crying again,aku da pnat smpai kadang2 da ta nak idup da..kdg2 aku pk idup ney tul2 ta fair..kdg2 aku benci idup ney,aku benci diri aku..thanks,adilla..even bru berapa ari jaa kta rapat,aku taw ko mmggg baik..aku nampak aku dlam diri kau,klaw ko na tawu aku rasa pa yunk ko rasa..bila ko nanges arituw dkt aku,aku pon rasa sedey..cayalah,aku da mula trust ko..tapi pasal menda yunk aku gtaw ko tadi,k ta trus judge aku..thanxx 4 dat,tapi aku cuma na ckp klaw bley aku pun tak nk benda ney jadi..dunt worry,tuw sume cuma masa silamku,i hpe u can accept that,ryte??this feeling just a past of my story,i wish that it can fade away from my lyfe foreva~

y must HER??

shit!!!

y must her,God??y it must be her,
it's so confusing,
damn it,
i dunt believe this will happen,it neva crossed my mind,
neva at all,
y not just other boys,y not him,,him or juz himm??
y it must be her,
a lot of question inside my mind rite now,
i juz like cannot think rite now,
really,
i really mean it
huhhhh,
npeww mesti zizi??
npew msti zizi yunk kuar af smalam,
napew bkn sidi tuw,
siot toll lar,
it's damn shock last nyte when ac announced her name,
OMG!!
huhuww,
hak3,
i noe u must think that i fell in luv wit gal,
actually i'm talking about af rite now,
it's not bout lurf or what,
no matter how is is i'm still not satisfied until now,
shit!shit!shit!

zizi,
kamu paling terbaik smalam,paling terbagus dowh,pling best dalam diari,pling syok tgk,alih-alih kamu yunk terkeluar..uwwwwwaaaa,cdeyhnyer zizi kuar..the most sad and tragic sidi lom kuar,hak3..ta spatutnya dy ada,zizi 100000 times lebey layak,,wahhhh,aku cakap cm aku undi zizi saja tapi HAMPEH,hek3...aku ska jimat wet,ta ska bazir2 ney,kih3...smalam aku n mama aku ta abes2 kutuk sidi..wahhh,agak2 suda 4 bakul dosa kami smalam,hak3...aku sja 3 bakul setengah,hak3...memang aku kejam dowh...smpai skunk dowh aku cam ta caya menda ney jadi..seb bek dowh aril aku blom kuar,klaw ta da lama aku bawak keluar bom letup akademi,hak33..cakap saja dowh..semalam af kontroversi dowh ya larrr pengkritik main hentam ajaa..ta salah bagi kritik but they must think too dorunk tuw dak masih blaja.if nk perfecto p tgk knsert artis pro jeww..n suprisingly,idola mama ada dowh,sapa agy klaw bkn Datuk Ct Nurhaliza,wahh makin happy,cmeyhhhh glewwww ct ney..ska tgk dy,dy baik,sopan santun n da most dy tabah jew..even ta mnat dy seminat mama kuwhhh yunk mnat separuh mati pada dy(hik3,soryy mum)tp i respect her..da lar banyak plak aku membebel arinieyhh..kt skuwl tayah cteww,ari isnin mmg buhsan siot..ckgu sume tada,1 period jaa blaja,tuw pun check keja skuwl ea..ramai ta siap n kena berdiri kt luar ta kira laki ka pompan ka pondan ka,hak3..n aku dapat pujian terbaik..ckgu kata buku aku terbaik,teringkas n djadikn contoh,hek(wahh,bangga diri pula,hak3..sekali sekala bkn senang nk dpt pujian kn?kn?kn?)..tah itu yunk last,hak3..itu sja yunk masa len ckgu tada,ckgu ta masuk,ckgu souwo uat keja sendiri..sume ckp cm rugi jeww mai skuwll..n me da one of them,hek3.. ; )

aiyahhhh,pa mau jadi spm suda dekat..
kayh,chow dluw..tata!

i ha+e u...

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my dear b.r.o. (refer to my old post tittle i mish u damn muchhyy)
u noe what??

i'm not goin to miss u anymore,
i'm not goin to regret for da thing that happened now,
i'm not goin to blame maself anymore,
u can go,
stay away from my lyfe,
i'm not goin to cry for u anymore,
i'm not goin to think about u anymore,
u can hate me foreva,
cuz i'm goin to hate u more than that..

~flashback kt dlm klas tady~

kuwh tgh bz uat + math
wit dyla,alya,anafyra n afiq
suddenly i heard a voice
it was him
huhh!!
how come he can be here??
dy ckap dgn shawty
he said
"ank jgn miskal2 aku,aku tak ska,aku menci owg yunk miskal aku"
he talk loud

kuwh terasa sangat,
coz that day i miskol him,
n he reply that,
but nothing happen anymore,
n juz like usual,
nothing happen..

seems that u dunt care bout me anymore,
n i'm goin to do da same thing too,
LEAVE U ALONE,
LEAVE ME ALONE,

IT'S BETTER JUZ END HERE..